Sivan: So, I was invited to this beauty pageant that my friend was in, and I've never been to a beauty pageant before. I went because I wanted to support her, and it was a like huge deal. And there were like hundreds of people there, and she shared her story in front of all these people and it was my story, basically.
In my freshman year of high school, things just got a little crazy, and I moved across the country to Connecticut. I was in a bad situation there. I had absolutely no control of my life at all, and the only thing that I could control was what I ate, you know, what I put into my body. And so, that turned into an eating disorder. It was a very stressful and scary part in my life and just very traumatizing. And so, yeah. But I really didn't tell anybody about it. You know, I felt very uncomfortable and very fearful of telling people that I had an eating disorder.
And she just stood up there, and she just told hundreds of people what she was going through, and it was really beautiful. In that moment when I was listening to her in this beautiful ball gown with hair and make-up, pretty girl. But I know that she won that pageant because of how beautiful she was on the inside. You know, I still struggle with it every single day, and I'm at a point in my recovery where I'm starting to think about not just what people think of me when they look at me, about who I am inside. Hearing her story and it inspired me to keep going. When I think of the word "beautiful," I think of my friend, April.There may be small errors in this transcript.