<div><div data-card="html" data-reactroot=""><blockquote class="instagram-media" data-instgrm-permalink="https://www.instagram.com/p/Bd2zmxnF93P/" data-instgrm-version="8" style=" background:#FFF; border:0; border-radius:3px; box-shadow:0 0 1px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.5),0 1px 10px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.15); margin: 1px; max-width:658px; padding:0; width:99.375%; width:-webkit-calc(100% - 2px); width:calc(100% - 2px);"><div style="padding:8px;"> <div style=" background:#F8F8F8; line-height:0; margin-top:40px; padding:62.4537037037037% 0; text-align:center; width:100%;"> </div><p style=" color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px; margin-bottom:0; margin-top:8px; overflow:hidden; padding:8px 0 7px; text-align:center; text-overflow:ellipsis; white-space:nowrap;"><a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/Bd2zmxnF93P/" style=" color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px; text-decoration:none;" target="_blank">A post shared by Irina Gonzalez (@msirinagonzalez)</a> on <time datetime="2018-01-12T16:36:36+00:00" style=" font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px;">Jan 12, 2018 at 8:36am PST</time></p></div></blockquote> <script async="" defer src="//www.instagram.com/embed.js"></script></div></div><h2>One of the things I struggled with in the beginning was the idea of being someone’s “wife.” </h2><p>Although it means different things to different people, the image that first pops into my head is that of a doting woman who cleans, cooks, and raises the children. Obviously, it’s not the 1950s, and my husband did not decide to marry me because I promised to do all these things for him (though, I admit, I absolutely <em>love</em> cooking — but that started long before I met him). In fact, we got engaged in a more <a href="https://hiplatina.com/getting-engaged-without-diamond-ring/" target="_blank">modern way</a>: By talking about out future and deciding that we both wanted to get married to each other. There was no surprise proposal or diamond ring, but instead we made a practical, yet romantic decision to spend the rest of our lives together. </p><p><strong>Why was I still afraid of losing my feminist identity after we tied the knot?</strong></p><p>I think that, no matter how much of an independent, feminist person I am, I still have a strong pull to take care of other people. In fact, as my husband has recently been pointing out, I am much more comfortable taking care of the needs of others than my own. My Latina upbringing taught me that cleaning up after others, making dinner, and never putting myself first was the way to go. And although I know this isn’t necessary, it is still my instinct to make sure that my husband is eating lunch before I even think of feeding myself. I have to actively stop myself from thinking about someone else and remind myself that self-care is just as important as caring for others.</p><h2>Being a feminist, to me, means caring about the equality of people and actively doing what I can to advance human rights and advocate for those who cannot advocate for themselves. </h2><p>But it also means making sure that I live by those principles in my own life, such as asking my husband to take care of the laundry (usually my chore) if I need some extra R&R on the weekend or bringing home dinner on days I have to work late. Of course, it also means sometimes picking up the slack and doing the dishes (typically his chore) when I see that he has to catch up some things at the end of the day and I don’t. After all, equality should be about being equals, and being equal means that sometimes he helps out more and sometimes I help out more.</p><div><div data-card="html" data-reactroot=""><blockquote class="instagram-media" data-instgrm-permalink="https://www.instagram.com/p/BegGgDjlYDv/" data-instgrm-version="8" style=" background:#FFF; border:0; border-radius:3px; box-shadow:0 0 1px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.5),0 1px 10px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.15); margin: 1px; max-width:658px; padding:0; width:99.375%; width:-webkit-calc(100% - 2px); width:calc(100% - 2px);"><div style="padding:8px;"> <div style=" background:#F8F8F8; line-height:0; margin-top:40px; padding:50.0% 0; text-align:center; width:100%;"> </div><p style=" color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px; margin-bottom:0; margin-top:8px; overflow:hidden; padding:8px 0 7px; text-align:center; text-overflow:ellipsis; white-space:nowrap;"><a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/BegGgDjlYDv/" style=" color:#c9c8cd; font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; font-style:normal; font-weight:normal; line-height:17px; text-decoration:none;" target="_blank">A post shared by Irina Gonzalez (@msirinagonzalez)</a> on <time datetime="2018-01-28T17:30:34+00:00" style=" font-family:Arial,sans-serif; font-size:14px; line-height:17px;">Jan 28, 2018 at 9:30am PST</time></p></div></blockquote> <script async="" defer src="//www.instagram.com/embed.js"></script></div></div><p>As I continued to struggle with the question of being a married feminist, I posed it to a few friends and one of them summed things up perfectly:</p><blockquote>"I think it means whatever you want it to mean. You are in an equal partnership. You split the work and both support and build up each other. If you take on more of the traditionally feminine roles, like cooking, do so because you want to and enjoy it, and enjoy supporting him in this role, and not because someone is telling you that is what you should do. And if he wants to take on those roles too, great! Like I said, equal partnership."</blockquote><p>Of course, a "feminist marriage" doesn’t necessarily mean that things are completely 50/50 all the time. For example, my husband makes more money than I do and will likely continue to do so just based on the nature of our jobs. I will likely take care of more of the child rearing when we decide to have kids because I work from home and I also want to. As with anything in a relationship, sometimes you have to compromise.</p><h2>At the end of the day, what makes one a feminist is their belief in equality.</h2><p>And what reinforces that belief is that people have the ability to choose their own paths in life. You can choose to get married or not get married. You can choose to change your last name or keep your birth name. But all in all, you can choose to have a relationship that is full of love, support, and a (fairly) equal division of labor. Oh, and one that encourages your feminist ideals of course.</p><p><em>This story originally appeared on <a href="https://hiplatina.com/feminist-wife-essay/" target="_blank">HipLatina</a> and is reprinted here with permission.</em></p>
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